Reconnecting with Rain

So I have had an obsession with the Weepies for a few years, but I am rediscovering them, in a new more blissful state. This song has been playing on repeat for me today. My life is sort of defined by the music I am residing with in the moment. I have a life soundtrack; sometimes I stop in the middle of crucial moments to listen to a song, read a lyric, post a blog. So today my song is Jolene by the Weepies, although really the entire "Happiness" cd (or playlist as new, young whipper-snappers may call it) has been shuffling through my life recently.

What is funny, this song could be another sort of melancholy tune about a broken heart or lost relationship, but that is not how I am thinking about it at all. Instead, for me, right now, it is a tune more about longing to know what "the weather" is like where someone you miss and love is when they are not with you. So of course, rain has connotations of sadness, but I love rain. I always have. I always used to say Spring was my favorite season because of the rain (however, it doesn't really rain in Colorado in springtime, so I switched favorite season to Fall.) I am thinking of returning to a place where I love Spring again, where my heart is open to reconnecting with the presence of rain, with the promise of something new. Although, it is true that sometimes the sun is beautiful and bright there is something very peaceful about the quiet and steady presence of rain. So this is my dedication to a new sort of weather in my life.

Jolene, The Weepies

It always rained around you
We tried to go inside and it would rain there too
It came pouring through the roof when we traveled underground
Whiskey, water, and tears 'til I thought that we would drown, Jolene

Jolene, Jolene
Is it still raining everywhere you are?

We didn't hide from it at all
No we just let it fall
In the morning she was gone and everything was dry
The city streets were crowded and I felt like I would die, Jolene

Jolene, Jolene
Is it still raining everywhere you are?

Now there's sunshine and flowers everywhere
And I don't care

All of these clouds will disappear
Like we were never here
But I swear there was a time I thought that it would never stop
And now I only think about you if it's raining or it's not, Jolene

Jolene, Jolene
Is it still raining everywhere you are?
Is it still raining everywhere you are?
Jolene, Jolene

• Jolene by The Weepies

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Ellis, Give Me Your Hand

I have this strange thing happening in my brain where I feel as though my life has movie clips (like snapshots of thoughts) and a full-on soundtrack to describe my space right now. This has always been my favorite Ellis song.

ELLIS, Give Me Your Hand

if she could describe how hard it is
how hard it is to survive
she needs something to lean on
how ‘bout you, how ‘bout you
she hesitates to ask, she leans on you
she doesn’t ask it’s easier
nothing is wrong, nothing will go wrong
everything’s fine
if you give me your hand
i’m on my way up if you give me some time
i think too much, i know you’ll understand
she sees her reflection
broken silence is blind
she can’t understand, her mind trapped in blue
you need something, you’re so good, you never ask
it’s easier
chorus
if we take chances to show how we feel
will we hurt each other beyond what can heal
and isn’t love the most important thing
i need you to know
the silence we hold close will tear us apart
we can open our selves, we can start understanding
i just ask you to listen
put your arms around me
let me cry like a child, don’t ask me to see
chorus

Listen here: Give Me Your Hand

Anyday, Ani DiFranco

This song has been calling to me for a few days now. I stopped listening to it awhile back, but it has remade it's way into my repertoire of favorites. It's amazing how songs can follow you through relationships, or periods of time, then you might break up with them and maybe in the end you get back together. I'm glad to be reunited with this song-it's so honest and as one of the commenters on the video says, "medicinal." I like that.

Anyday, Ani DiFranco


I will lean into you
And you can be the wind
I will open up my mouth
And you can come rushing in
You can rush in so hard
And make it so I can’t breathe
I breathe too much anyway
I can do that anyday

I just wish I knew who you were
I wish you’d make yourself known
Probably you don’t know I’m her
The woman you want to call home
I’ll keep my ear to the wall
I’ll keep my eye on the door
’cause I’ve heard all my own jokes
And they’re just not funny anymore
I laugh too much anyway
I can do that anyday

Have you ever been bent or pulled
Have you ever been played like strings
If I could see you I could strum you
I could break you
Make you sing
But I guess you can’t really see the wind
It just comes in and fills the space
And everytime something moves
You think that you have seen it’s face
And I’ve always got my guitar to play
But I can do that anyday

Week 7 breathing and music...last country song promise

A very lovely friend made me a "Forget You" C.D and I love, love, love it!!! :-)

So, this is one of the songs from it and yes, it is a sappy country song. And I promise it is the last one, but I like it. It's empowering...not just angry and I think it describes the place I am at right now. I like it also because it is hopeful...like me. Le sigh. I recently read this blog post and I thought it said something really smart: (to paraphrase) It isn't that the breakup is still so painful or killing me, but it is the fact that I had these plans made for my life and what it would like and now they are totally changed. "i can't keep trying to maintain this balance of dealing with the heartache of losing a relationship that i worked so hard to maintain...losing so much more than that relationship...i've had to change the way i envision my future now."http://asongfortheday.blogspot.com/2007/11/so-i-went-to-ani-difranco-concert-in.html

Getting used to living a new life is how I am getting a little bit stronger everyday. I'm still angry that my plans were altered so abruptly and without my consent, but that is the way it goes sometimes. And when that happens it helps to have really good friends around, willing to be buffers, willing to take you out for a night on the town, and willing to just stay in and watch a movie. But friends aren't always going to be there and my therapist has a life besides handling my problems, so I have myself. And I actually really enjoy my own company. I took myself to Black Swan yesterday, first time going to a movie alone. And I really liked it. I didn't have to worry about if anyone else liked it, if they would eat the popcorn and junior mints, or thought it was too creepy...and I only had to pay for me. It's a lot cheaper to just date yourself. So even though I hear those songs and get sad thinking about what could have been, I keep telling myself it will be ok. And I think maybe, I am beginning to believe it.




Sarah Evans, A Little Bit Stronger

Woke up late today and I still feel the sting of the pain
But I brushed my teeth anyway
I got dressed through the mess and put a smile on my face
I got a little bit stronger

Riding in the car to work and I'm trying to ignore the hurt
So I turned on the radio, stupid song made me think of you
I listened to it for minute but I changed it
I'm getting a little bit stronger, just a little bit stronger

And I'm done hoping that we could work it out
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around
And, oh, I'm done thinking that you could ever change

I know my heart will never be the same
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay
Even on my weakest days
I get a little bit stronger

Doesn't happen overnight but you turn around
And a month's gone by and you realize you haven't cried
I'm not giving you a hour or a second or another minute longer
I'm busy getting stronger


And I'm done hoping that we can work it out
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around
And, oh, I'm done thinking, that you could ever change

I know my heart will never be the same
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay
Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger
I get a little bit stronger

Getting along without you, baby
I'm better off without you, baby
How does it feel without me, baby?
I'm getting stronger without you, baby

And I'm done hoping we could work it out
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around
And, oh, I'm done thinking that you could ever change

I know my heart will never be the same
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay
Even on my weakest days
I get a little bit stronger

I get a little bit stronger
Just a little bit stronger
A little bit, a little bit, a little bit stronger
I get a little bit stronger

My Fave Glee Moment: Forget You!!!

This is my fave Glee moment!!!




lyrics to Forget You / Cee-Lo

(Chorus)
I see you driving 'round town
With the girl I love and I'm like,
Forget you!
Oo, oo, oooo
I guess the change in my pocket
Wasn't enough, I'm like,
Forget you!
And forget her too!
Said, if I was richer, I'd still be with ya
ha , aint that some shit?
ain't that some shit
And although there's pain in my chest
I still wish you the best with a...
Forget you!
Oo, oo, oooo

Yeah I'm sorry, I can't afford a ferrari,
But that don't mean I can't get you there.
I guess he's an xbox and I'm more atari,
But the way you play your game ain't fair.

I pity the fooool that falls in love with you oh
(oh shit she's a gold digger)
Well
(just thought you should know n*!$&)
Ooooooh
I've got some news for you
Yeah go run and tell your little boyfriend

I see you driving 'round town
With the girl I love and I'm like,
Forget you!
Oo, oo, oooo
I guess the change in my pocket
Wasn't enough, I'm like,
Forget you!
And forget her too!
Said, if I was richer, I'd still be with ya
ha , aint that some shh?
And although there's pain in my chest
I still wish you the best with a...
Forget you!
Oo, oo, oooo

Now I know, that I had to borrow,
Beg and steal and lie and cheat.
Trying to keep ya, trying to please ya.
'Cause being in love with you ain't cheap.

now, I pity the fool that falls in love with you ohh
(oh shh she's a gold digger)
Well
(just thought you should know n*&$!)
Ooooooh
I've got some news for you
uh! I really hate your friend right now!

I see you driving 'round town
With the girl I love and I'm like,
Forget you!
Oo, oo, oooo
I guess the change in my pocket
Wasn't enough, I'm like,
Forget you!
And forget her too!
Said, if I was richer, I'd still be with ya
ha , aint that some shh?
And although there's pain in my chest
I still wish you the best with a...
Forget you!
Oo, oo, oooo

Now baby, baby, baby, why d'you wanna wanna hurt me so bad?
(so bad, so bad, so bad)
I tried to tell my mamma but she told me
"this is one for your dad"
(your dad, your dad, your dad)
Uh! Whhhy? Uh! Whhhy? Uh!
Whhhy lady? Oh! I love you
I still Love you!! Ohhhh...

I see you driving 'round town
With the girl I love and I'm like,
Forget you!
Oo, oo, oooo
I guess the change in my pocket
Wasn't enough, I'm like,
Forget you!
And forget her too!
Said, if I was richer, I'd still be with ya
ha , aint that some shit?
And although there's pain in my chest
I still wish you the best with a...
Forget you!
Oo, oo, oooo

By Cee-Lo Green

6 weeks and breathing--and music

At six weeks, I feel re-punched in the stomach and that the break-up is finally real. So much of me was waiting to make it through Christmas, because well, I just had to. But Christmas was so hard having to see her, every time anything happened, I almost burst into tears. I held it in to the last possible moment. Then after sobbing a good while on my mother's bed, I felt the need to return to my home in the City, and just debrief with myself. Since then it has been a matter of days (3) since cutting off all contact with my ex-something everyone has encouraged me to do in order to move on. I congratulate myself with every hour, because that is how hard it is to deal with. "You can only control yourself." "Doing this will make you feel empowered." I have to admit with every minute that passes without a call, text, or e-mail, I do feel better. And the other thing that makes it better is knowing that I have the power to do this indefinitely. I could never make contact again, which, at this point is an appealing option.

But since this post is about breathing--and music. I have been getting ragged on for my sad country song posts on the fb (nothing like some sad country music to mend a mangled heart.) In fact I received a list of music, "to change things up a bit." ;-) So I included them into my "Breaking Up is Hard to Do" playlist. And as an Ani DiFranco lover, the first one on the list, "Rock, Paper, Scissors" has really got me because of the amazing lyrics, which, are posted at the bottom. Portions highlighted for emphasis.

But, it is at this moment, as I lay in freshly washed sheets, pondering a shower, I know I will be ok. But part of my being o.k. is continuing to be really hurt, angry, and frustrated for the way I was and continue to be treated. And the only solution I have is cutting someone off. I am open to other suggestions, but I tried the let's be friends right away" and I just don't think it is possible. It's like the line at the end of "Twenty-Something Girls vs. Thirty-Something Women" (and yes, I see the irony as being a person who is only 27!!!) Carrie ends the episode saying, "And then I realised something, twenty-something girls are just fabulous, until you see one with the [wo]man who broke your heart." And that is the trouble, if I didn't feel like a washed a worn piece of someone's midlife crisis, maybe it would be different! I would love to hear anyone's suggestions for A.) How to handle the post-breakup and B.) Good breakup songs that are encapsulating of both sadness and empowering. Get on it!

So here's my first song for myself in this series.


Ani DiFranco, Rock, Paper, Scissors
it's rock paper scissors as to whether i will get over you at all. it's
hand against hand and both hands are mine. it's standing in a circular line,
which is not to say that i'm not also happy. a happy meal with a surprise
inside. surprise, surprise is another bright light in my eyes, exposing all
the stuff i'm not calculating enough to hide. this melancholy that i carry
makes me feel so grown up at the kitchen table doing shots of resignation. i
never thought i'd see the day when i would i say i give up and tame the
stallions of my wildest expectations. but i do not want to know you this way,
surrounded by so much pain. but how am i supposed to let go of you this way,
like a bird into the sky of my brain? i think i could accept all these dark
colors as just part of some bigger color scheme if it wasn't for that drippy
string quartet of sadness underscoring each smiling scene. yeah desire drags
me right out of myself like a gas soaked rope tied to a piece of coal. and i'm
getting pretty good at looking at the bright side while the flames ripple on
the sand and swallow me whole. but this melancholy that i carry makes me feel
so grown up at my kitchen table doing shots of resignation. i never thought
i'd see the day when i would say i give up and break the stallions of my
wildest expectations. but i do not want to know you this way surrounded by so
much pain/ but how am i supposed to let go of you this way like a bird into
the sky of my brain.

here's a video, which, I think was created by the same person who sent me the list of songs. I could be wrong, but I am thinking not so much.

In Honor of High Fidelity

In honor of the movie High Fidelity and Top Five Records I am starting a series of blogs on top five lists. The first is top five movies: genre music/musical


5.) Dream Girls: this movie makes the list because while the movie itself isn't the greatest and Beyonce could go eff herself-Jennifer Hudson is a freaking show stealer/stopper. She is honestly amazing as both a vocalist and an actress ad the movie world is lucky to have her in such a blah film.

4.) Hedwig and the Angry Inch: This movie is a cult classic much in the same vein as Rocky Horror Picture Show with more music and less dancing but equally insane plot lines and costumes.

3.) Almost Famous: Hold Me Closer Tiny Dancer need I say more?

2.) High Fidelity: This story does not make number one simply because of the memories it evokes in me. As far as plot and soundtrack are concerned this movie is an A++. My absolute favorite scene is when Rob and love interest Laura are in the rain and she says "Rob have sex with me because I need to feel something different than this."

1.) And of course the list would not be complete without School of Rock. Jack Black equals all time hilarity and small kids in this battle of the bands. I love this movie, think it is amazing and while not beautiful or profound is somewhat touching and inspired that whole spin-off show so I salute it.

of course anything with Dolly Parton, The Beatles, and John Travolta could also make the list but there just wasn't room this time around.

Better Get To Livin, so says Dolly

So I love Dolly Parton like a gay man singin 9-5 in a gay bar and I am diggin' on the song/video Better Get To Livin, from her new album Backwoods Barbie! It's kind of one of those empowerment anthems you blare in you car during your commute like five times just because it makes you happy and smile. It also requires karaoke style singing complete with fake microphone etc...

Better Get To Livin Lyrics
--
People always comin' up to me and askin'
"Dolly, what's your secret?
With all you do, your attitude
Just seems to be so good
How do you keep it?"
Well, I'm not the Dalai Lama, but I'll try
To offer up a few words of advice.

Chorus:
You better get to livin', givin'
Don't forget to throw in a little forgivin'
And lovin' on the way
You better get to knowin', showin'
A little bit more concerned about where you're goin'
Just a word unto the wise
You better get to livin'.

A girlfriend came to my house
Started cryin' on my shoulder Sunday evening
She was spinnin' such a sad tale
I could not believe the yarn that she was weavin'
So negative the words she had to say
I said if I had a violin I'd play.

I said you'd better get to livin', givin'
Be willing and forgivin'
Cause all healing has to start with you
You better stop whining, pining
Get your dreams in line
And then just shine, design, refine
Until they come true
[Better Get To Livin' lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

And you better get to livin'.

Your life's a wreck, your house is mess
And your wardrobe way outdated
All your plans just keep on falling through
Overweight and under paid, under appreciated
I'm no guru, but I'll tell you
This I know is true.

You better get to livin', givin'
A little more thought about bein'
A little more willin' to make a better way
Don't sweat the small stuff
Keep your chin up
Just hang tough
And if it gets too rough
Fall on your knees and pray
And do that everyday
Then you'll get to livin'.

The day we're born we start to die
Don't waste one minute of this life
Get to livin'
Share your dreams and share your laughter
Make some points for the great hereafter.

Better start carin'
Better start sharin'
Better start tryin'
Better start smiling
And you better get to livin'...
--

songs for the day

Good Happy Spring Time Songs
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Kittery Tide, Girlyman

There are times when I want to pick up and say goodbye
To the oldest friends I've known
Jump in the car with no street map
No long sleeve shirts or shoes to pack
Just the sound of you and my guitar

Chorus: I can't wait 'til the day
You come running to say
Those summer nights are here to stay
We can run far away
Not tell a soul for a day
Carry me, oh freedom's delight

'cause I've spent times locked in grooves
Trapped in mama's old black shoes
Or my papa's, folks' and friends'
Always wanted a way just to have my own say
And walk the untrod path 'til the end

Chorus

As the map tore in two
I swore and vented like a fool
Watching miles tick, road signs fly
But I was running from myself
There was no one else
Who could know that better than I

Chorus

As the light changed to red
I wrapped the scarf tight round my head
I was cold as the Kittery tide
There was not much more to see
So I turned back quietly
And crossed back to the other side

Chorus



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And Coo Coos Nest, Jeff Austin normally with Yonder Mountain String Band


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stuff and nonsense, missy higgins

the thing about itunes as well as most websites these days is that they now are able to make predictions about music/book/products you will like from the things you purchase and browse. Now in some ways I think this is odd and Big Brotherish-however at least on itunes they tend to be fairly accurate and occasionally i run into an artist that I truly enjoy and am glad I was introduced even if it was in this way. Take for instance Missy Higgins who's EP Where I Stood was a recommendation. I listened, purchased, and am now in love with said EP, especially the song Stuff and Nonsense. I listened to her other stuff and I wasn't as inspired-so in the end i am very very glad that itunes is stalking me in this way...sometimes...
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Lyrics
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Missy Higgins, Stuff and Nonsense

Disobey my own decisions
I deserve all your suspicions
First it's yes and then it's no
I dilly dally down to duo
But I've got no secrets that I babble in my sleep
I won't make promises to you that I can't keep

And you know that I love you
Here and now not forever
I can give you the present
I don't know about the future
That's all stuff and nonsense

I once lived for the future
Everyday seemed one day closer
Greener on the other side
Yes I believed before I met you
But I soon learned your love burned brighter than the stars in my eyes
Now I know how and when, I know where and why

And you know that I love you
Here and now not forever
I can give you the present
I don't know about the future
That's all stuff and nonsense
--
cheesy @$$ vid

Hey Flirt With This...I am a Certified Hard Core Bitch

Recently a friend put this song on a cd for me and I love it a little bit. While I don't necessarily agree with the implications of violence I do understand why attitudes like this are at some points necessary to deal with the crap of sexism, heterosexism, homophobia, and misogyny alive and well in our culture. She seems to think this song reminds her of me to which I reply, "feminist bitch-yep you better believe it" I seem to wear it well I think...

Flirting, Jess Klein

The boss didn't like me
Cause I refused to flirt
He paid me peanuts
And treated me like dirt
He said but we could work it out
So what do you say
I thought I bet at 5pm
This gets subtracted from my pay

But I said Hey hey
Flirt with this I am a certified hardcore bitch
And I do not want approval from you
But I'll let you live and thats the only favor I'm gonna do

I sing myself to sleep
I sing myself awake
It's a woodenbelly hustle
He says shake a baby shake
And I guess I shook it too hard in a public place
Cause he was breathing down my neck
With his arm around my waist
And his slimey intentions were ozzing from his face
He said whats a pretty girl like you doing without a man
I said why don't you ask my girlfriend
She'll help you understand

And I said Hey Hey
Flirt with this
I am a certified hardcore bitch
And I do not want attention from you
But I'll let you live and that's the only favor I'm gonna do

Serving food to a man with a top ten list on his chest
Top ten reasons why beer is better than women
What? God
Reason number one beer always tastes fresh
I spit in his salad so that it was better dressed
Reason number two beer labels don't put up a fight
I looked at the carving knife and thought I just might
So I rang up his order and what did I say
Thank you for raping me with your shirt
And have a nice day
He said relax girly don't you like to flirt
And I said no bagels and lox for you pal

Yeah I said Hey Hey
Flirt with this
I am a certified hardcore bitch
And I do not care for your point of view
But I'll let you live and you'll consider yourself lucky too

So sing it with me ladies
Theres no need to be afraid
A bad attitude can really brighten up your day
Some man tries to get you to hang your head in shame
Just give him the boot
Yeah reclaim the name that brought you to fame

And say Hey Hey
Flirt with this
I am a certified hardcore bitch
And I do not want any shit from you
But I'll let you live and that's the only favor I'm gonna do
--
video version

For Aidan...my beauty of a nephew...

Better, Toby Lightman

He'll be enough to make you cry
He'll be enough to open your eyes
To all the little things that make this world better
He'll give you love you never know
He'll give his heart only to you
And he'll make your life oh better

So when he comes to you in the middle of the night
Cause he's scared to be alone in the dark
You'll tell him everything's gonna be alright

Cause I will be your light
I will be your night
I will be that star in hte sky who watches over you

You'll tell him everything you know
You'll tell him "oh the plces you'll go"
So you can be a good man and
make this world better.
You'll give him all the love you have
Even when he makes you so mad
Keep in mind, that he made your life better.

So when he comes to you and he's so confused
Because he wants to give his heart to another
You'll tell him everything's gonna be just fine

Cause I will be your light
And when the years are going by too fast
and he's growing up to be big and strong
Know his love for you will last
Even when he doesn't say it to your face
Even when you have to put him in his place
Know that he's a love that nothing in this
world can ever replace
--
Toby Lightman – Better

look at miss ohio

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Gillian Welch, Look At Miss Ohio Lyrics

Oh me oh my oh, look at Miss Ohio
She’s a-running around with her rag-top down
She says I wanna do right but not right now

Gonna drive to Atlanta and live out this fantasy
Running around with the rag-top down
Yeah I wanna do right but not right now

Had your arm around her shoulder, a regimental soldier
An’ mamma starts pushing that wedding gown
Yeah you wanna do right but not right now

Oh me oh my oh, would ya look at Miss Ohio
She’s a-runnin’ around with the rag-top down
She says I wanna do right but not right now

I know all about it, so you don’t have to shout it
I’m gonna straighten it out somehow
Yeah I wanna do right but not right now

Oh me oh my oh, look at Miss Ohio
She a-runnin’ around with her rag-top down
She says I wanna do right , but not right now
Oh I wanna do right but not right now

I love this song...

I gThis is kind of my life right now...I love it!!

"Where I Go" Natalie Merchant

Climbing under
A barbed wire fence
By the railroad ties

Climbing over
The old stone wall
I'm bound for the riverside

Well, I go over to the river
To soothe my mind
To ponder over
The crazy days of my life
Just sit and watch the river flow

Find a place
On the riverbank
Where the green rushes grow
See the wind
In the willow tree
In the branches hanging low

Well, I go to the river
To soothe my mind
To ponder over
The crazy days of my life
Watch the river flow
Ease my mind and soul
Where I go

Well I will go to the river
From time to time
Wander over
These crazy days in my mind
Watch the river flow
Where the willow branches grow
By the cool rolling waters
Moving gracefully and slow

O, child it's lovely
Let the river take it all away
The mad pace and the hurry
The troubles and the worries
Just let the river take them all away
Flow away

http://mog.com/music/Natalie_Merchant/Tigerlily/Where_I_Go

the only clip I could find and it is only a link and 30 seconds-but it's worth it

Ootischenia, The Be Good Tanyas

Ootischenia, The Be Good Tanyas

I really love this song because I think it deals with interesting issues regarding disciplining the body and possibly feeling duty to ones community or culture over oneself. I listen to a lot as I drive and I think about it critically.
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Little sad with everything around me
I hit the floor and my feet kept moving
I look forward and never backwards
I was out the door like a roman soldier.

Impossible to keep a straight line
Too young to keep these bitter hearts

And all around me
Somebody singing
Get back get back

Long hair coming down her shoulders
She is tired and feeling so much older
So tear the pages from the family bible
It came down upon the women for survival
It came down upon the women for survival

You know it wasn’t me, no
And nothing at all, you stop me if I get it wrong
I think I’m hearing somebody saying
I’m gonna spank you ‘till you can’t sit down

Bust apart we’ll lose each other
The constellation of my sisters and brothers
I’m spinning out into the darkness

Good bye to you in the sadness of this
Good bye to you in the sadness of this
Good bye to you in the sadness of this

Impossible to keep a straight line
Too young to keep these bitter hearts

And all around me
Somebody singing
Get back get back
--

Jenny Lewis with the Watson Twins-Hott

Jenny Lewis(Rilo Kiley) with the Watson Twins, Rise Up With Fists

Lyrics--
What are you changing?
Who do you think you're changing?
You can't change things, we're all stuck in our ways
It's like trying to clean the ocean
What do you think you can drain it?
Well it was poison and dry long before you came

But you can wake up younger under the knife
And you can wake up sounder if you get analyzed
And I better wake up
There before the grace of God go hide!

It's hard to believe your profits
When they're asking you to change things
But with their suspect lives we look the other way
Are you really that pure, Sir?
Thought I saw you in Vegas
It was not pretty, but she was

But she will wake up wealthy
And you will wake up 45
And she will wake up with babies
There before the grace of God go hide!

What am I fighting for?
The cops are at the front door
I can't escape that way, the windows are in flames
And what's that on your ankle?
You say they're not coming for you
But house arrest is really just the same

Like when you wake up behind the bar
Trying to remember where you are
Having crushed all the pretty things
There before the grace of God go hide!

But I still believe
And I will rise up with fists
And I will take what's mine mine mine
There before the grace of God go hide!
There before the grace of God go hide!
There before the grace of God go hide!
There before the grace of God go hide!
--

Fergie...what

So I have liked the songs Big Girls Don't Cry for awhile now. For as heterosexual, as normative, and as possibly and probably exploitative of women as this song is-I am so glad to finally hear a song about a woman who takes control of her life. It's a personal choice to take a risk and try new things and I hate that almost all break-up songs are so sad and from the perspective of the broken up with. It isn't super fun being the breaker either people. And we rarely celebrate women taking control of their own destinies and doing what is best for them and not their family, husband, children, job etc...Of course this contradicts with an earlier post about duty being an admirable trait-but in this case Fergie-I salute you-you made the best coice you could given the situation you were in (Candies underpants and all!) Of course it kind of sucks that it is Fergie who brings us this inner monologue of a chick going through a break-up because she wants to do what is best for herself. And she's going to miss her partner but she needs to do some personal growth too...I like to imagine that someone like Sarah McLachlan is doing this song so that I could actually admit to liking it and not be like a total post-feminist a-hole! Or maybe a nice mountain songstress will do a rendition similar to say "Umbrella..."

So here goes...I like Fergie, I like this song, I am not afraid anymore...

oh and the guy from heroes is in the video and HELLO...he can fly (not in the video but on Heroes...) and I think the song is also kind of about masturbation...which I am all about!!

the video--

--
the lyrics
La Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and Center, Clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS:] [I like to scream this part]-emphasis mine...
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightening out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

[CHORUS:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightening out to do
[Big Girls Don't Cry lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and UNO cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be mine Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and Center, Clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightening out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

La Da Da Da Da Da
--

don't make fun of me...too bad

I go Madly for Tristan Prettyman

I love Tristan Prettyman. From the first time I saw her open for Blues Traveler and then again for Jason Mraz at Luther College I have severely loved her. I say severely because she is one of those artists that has the ability to reach any situation at any time or point in my life and she also has been an artist that has really helped me through some severe physical pain: read she has made migraine headaches go away. But I am in love with the first single Madly-off her new album Hello which hasn't been released yet. It's traditional Tristan -upbeat guitar playin, singin chica-but it also has the ability to really reach the soul and give me a song that provides space for conflicted feelings. It incites similar feelings as Joni Mitchell's All I Want. Read: You hurt me but I still potentially love you. Maybe I am truly just the most bittersweet person of life-but the songs, movies, and T.V. that touches the pain and joy of life are the ones that really speak to me. At least this one speaks pretty easily in a fun ad somewhat optimistic way.
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lyrics

Madly - Tristan Prettyman

I'm not surprised that you still call
I'm not surprised
I'm all surprised that i don't answer
pick up the phone to call you back
pick up the phone to call you back
ain't it funny how things work out like that

'cause the time that it takes to open my eyes
is the time that it took me to realize

madly madly madly
tell me that you need me
show me I'm the only and thats all i need to know.

madly madly madly
if you really love me,
when you see me leave and baby, just let me go

well i've been good, no i've been great
you say you're in a better place
and honestly, i might be for ya

but there's a tone in my voice that gives away my selfish choice.
can my heart beat any faster?

'cause the time that it takes to pass me by
is the time that it took me to realize

madly madly madly
tell me that you need me
show me I'm the only and thats all i need to know

madly madly madly
if you really love me,
when you see me leave and baby, just let me go

we'll give it up, try to find
what was with us all the time
gotta lose some things, if you're ever gonna get on by
and who was wrong, who was right
always end up in a fight
i thought i'd crumble, but no I'm fine.

madly madly madly
if you really love me
when you see me leave and just let me go

madly madly madly
well tell me that you need me and show me I'm the only and that's all i need to
know know know know

madly madly madly
if you really love me
when you see me leave and baby just let it go-no

madly madly madly
tell me that you want me
when you see me leave and baby
just let me go
--
no videos of this song yet-bummer that woulda been really cool.

Brandi Carlile, Turpentine

Brandi Carlile, Turpentine

I watch you grow away from me in photographs
And memories like spies
And salt betrays my eyes again
I started losing sleep and gaining weight
And wishing I was was ten again
So I could be your friend again

These days we go to waste like wine
That's turned to turpentine
It's six AM and I'm all messed up
I didn't mean to waste your time
So I'll fall back in line
But I'm warning you we're growing up

I heard you found some pretty words to say
You found your little game to play
and there's no one allowed in
Then just when we believe we could be great
Reality it permeates
And conquers from within again

These days we go to waste like wine
That's turned to turpentine
It's six AM and I'm all messed up
I didn't mean to waste your time
So I'll fall back in line
But I'm warning you we're growing up

We're OK I know we're OK
These days we go to waste like wine
That's turned to turpentine
It's six AM and I'm all messed up
I didn't mean to waste your time
So I'll fall back in line
But I'm warning you we're growing up
[Turpentine Lyrics on
http://www.lyricsmania.com/ ]
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http://crackle.com/c/Scrambler/The_Concretes_-_'Kids'/1813649/#ml=o%3D15%26fc%3D26%26fx%3D

After Jane []

After Jane, Joan Osborne (yep she's bi)
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I can’t laugh
I can’t moan
I can’t leave myself alone
After Jane
After Jane

I was hers
She was mine
We were together all the time
Oh, my Jane
Oh, my Jane

Maybe it’s the right thing, and maybe it’s wrong
You know I lay awake and wonder all night long
Maybe it’s over and maybe we’re free
You know this lonely feelin’ is drownin’ me

Will I rise up again?
Will I ever know a friend, like my Jane?
Oh, my Jane

Maybe it’s the right thing and maybe it’s wrong
You know I lay awake and wonder all night long
Maybe it’s over and maybe it’s not
You know this lonely feelin’ is all I got

Will I rise up again?
Will I ever know a friend, like my Jane?
Oh, my Jane

After Jane
After Jane
Oh, my Jane
Oh, my Jane
After Jane